Hello, I'm gonna get a lot of hate on this post. Probably a lot of people is gonna say that it's fake, it's not. This is the honest truth, this is not for drama i just feel like this is something that i have to tell people. I'm tired of hiding behind a screen with fake identities, this is who I really am... I'm just gonna start it off with the fact that my parrents are divorced, and I am 13 years old. I'm in 7th grade in my school. I live in a country called Denmark, it's in Europe. Right now I'm almost addicted to the music by Tyler Joseph, i think its amazing and i can relate to almost all of his songs, wait let me go back there. Not almost all of his songs, ALL of his songs ALL of them without one expetion. By the way sorry if there are any grammar mistakes... Also theres a picture of me in the bottom of this thread... Things are really hard for me specially right now, i feel like the worlds really kicking me down. I feel like im on the ground and everyone and everything keeps stepping on me. I feel like I'm trying to get up but someone keeps kicking me down on the ground. The only place i feel confident and have some self respect is when playing on MineTime, its my happy place. But because of bad staff members they're ruining my only place where i can relax. Call me a faggot an idiot everything you want to but the truth is that i not only enjoy MineTime its not only the only place i can relax, I'm addicted to MineTime. I often smile and laugh in school but everything is fake, i feel stressed depressed suicidal, I often think about hanging my self, and i have tried to commit suicide about 3 times. I've recently come out to my dad about how i feel because before no one knew and i felt like i need help very bad. My sister Nadja, recently died because of an overdose of LSD, this is the thing that people are gonna mostly hate on i expect, no one would belive in this but why would i lie about it? I can actually explain the whole story while I'm making this thread. It was 1am and i was making my prison tmfilms tribute pvp montage. She was in her room right next to mine I heard her screaming at her boyfriend that he was killing her and i didnt really knew what was going on... A few hours later i finished the pvp montage about 4am and went to bed. The next morning my dad told me to get in the car, i did what he said and we drove to the hospital. He told me on the way that my sister had taken LSD with her boyfriend, and that she was in the hospital. 1 Day later i was told that she died, but she didn't really die. She's like an emotionless stone right now, she's with her boyfriend all the time she hasn't been home since then and she havn't even looked at me. I feel unloved scared anxious suicidal and i have this weird need for everyone to like me. But yet i feel like no one likes me... But as i said i recently told my dad everything and i dont have to go to school for a while and im going to a doctor to see whats wrong. I dont know if im traumatized because of some bs that happened last year i might be though. Let me just tell you what happened, last year i met this girl called angie. I know names are supposted to be with capitol first letter but i dont think that shes even worth a captiol letter. I fell madly in love with her, eventually we would come together and she was my girlfriend, but she cheated on me with her x boyfriend. That time i felt more depressed than ever and within a week i tried to commit suicide twice. I found another way to release the pain and that is what some people call "cutting" other people would call it "self harm". But i started cutting, this is actually real none of the things in this post is fake! For some reasons i just want this in the post, quotes that helped me through hard times: "now the night is comming to an end, the sun will rise and we will try again. Stay alive for me" "You will die but now your life is free" " i walk to you, rain falls from you, can you wash me? Can you drown me?" " i wanna be a lot of things so much pent up inside of me i wanna be stronger too long i've sat here undecidedly, and im back in front of you lord with blood on the floor, is the blood mine or yours dont wanna do this anymore" " Oh yeah i belive in love, and i hope i can show you what i mean, and i dont belive love's for me so wont you come around and prove me wrong" fav song: Pictures below love minetime <33 (not drama post i just felt like doing this)
Well, I've been where you are in a very similar situation. I eventually escalated to really heavy drug usage, drinking and parties; stay away from this, it nearly killed me. You could try talking to someone about it, but very few people can actually help you. Hell, even one of my ex-girlfriends cheated on me, and my latest ex-girlfriend tried cheating on me; I got paranoid and hacked her SnapChat and found out that she was going to cheat on me. Cutting is something you should away from as well; nothing but drama will come of it. Try doing something else when you feel like cutting yourself; working out, video games, chat with random people on Omegle or ChatRoulette, maybe get a Reddit account and start posting on there, etc.
Omegle just asks for trouble tbh. Dragondaman, Like Jed, I've also been in similar situations. Not just myself but people close to me getting involved with self harm and suicide. The thing that's kept me away from it recently is doing things I enjoy but don't get to do so often anymore. Like, during last year before I got so busy i used to go swimming and surfing or massive walks to get my mind off things. Maybe you should try something like that too, just get out of the house and away from everyone. Year 7 is pretty stressful but it gets better, don't worry. Just try not to get yourself caught up in any drugs because that's the thing that will definitely bring you down. Check your PM's in a sec.
I've been through hell and back on this server and IRL, lowkey wonder why I continue to play, and I completely get where you're coming from with everything. I've recently started getting out of my comfort zone and talking to people outside of the internet, and I strongly recommend making some close friends at school. Based off my experience, you will regret spending so much time on Minetime and on the internet in general, but it may not be like that for you. Everyone has a different experience. You are probably a very strong person, because you've made it 13 years in your life. Life is quite short, and 13 years means a lot. If you ever want some advice or guidance or anything really, feel free to dm me and we can be friends. "The sun will rise and we will try again". A great song lyric by Twenty One Pilots, remember that lyric when times are tough.
I have been in your situation aswell. Here is some advice Don't try to commit suicide, God gave you a life and you have to appreciate it. You only have one life, We're not cats. Don't feel depressed just because of a girl, She is not worth your time and energy PM me if you need help or a friend. Stay Strong <3
I know how u feel sir. I have depression and I was born with problems learning. I got depression 2015 from a guy making me jelly who was my bf but left me and made me jelly with his new mean gf that called me mean names. Oh if u don't know who I am. I'm Mandy known as the brat people call me everyday. Due to people hating for no cause. People that I know used drugs in a little bit in my fam tree used drugs and passed away. I hope u feel better sir
Hey guys thanks for all the nice responds, i just realised how helpfull the community actually is love you all <33
I have been in the same situation as you and I feel your pain. I recently just lost two family members to the same overdose and it's been rough these few months. My advice to you is to stay strong, stay in school, and get through life with a smile on your face. Remember, life is short. I'll keep you in my prayers.
It's okay, I've been through, some of the same stuff, i'm also suicidal and very depressed, try finding something you love, and if you wanna tell anyone you know who would send you to a counselor. If none of this works, then don't be afraid to tell someone, my parents are divorced too, my baby cousin has no one in range to take care of her, her mom is a serious threat to my family too. You don't seem to get bullied, so, no problem there. "Let nature takes it's course". Don't worry, you can always talk to anyone on MT about how you feel, we're here to support you no matter what. Hope life gets better for you ^^!